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This weekend should have been joyous. Two weddings to attend with frends and family. Your freinds wedding and my son's wedding. Since both people live in the same town in Northen ca., my son planned his wedding the same weekend as Shanes. It was a great idea so we didn't have to make a second 7 hr drive one way. Then all the joy slipped away. You informed me that you would not be attending my son's wedding and that I would need to drive seperately. Shocked. Hurt. Your reason was that your parents were watching your youngest daughter that weekend so you could attend the wedding. You didn't want to bother them with having her an extra day for my son's wedding. You felt bad for your parents, you said. I pointed out that this was a big day for me and my family, your extended family. I suggested we bring your daughter with us seeing that her mom lived 40 min away from where we would be, why drive back down to Socal and then half way up to Sacramento just a day later. ...

Ah, but the joys of life A compulsory dream and so relevant Had to settle on a pencil to write Two pens out of ink - Irrelevant. Doesn't matter , it's all the same American Dream

I am an old country, goth, blues, punk- loving woman I am a mother too early, who grew with her children I am a sinner and a saint, a lover and a fighter I am an executive, a Jill of all trades, a forever student I am a singer, dancer, dreamer, and a poet I am all that encompasses the American dream -An all American woman  

"Happy shit" -She said "Write it" Laughter ensued.. ( Gloria and Renee had been friends so long they thought each other the most clever of all) "Isn't it a morose thought? to knowingly write about an illusive happiness, only to give others false hope? Isn't that murder in the heart degree?"- (asks Renee, giggling) (Gloria answers) "I say yes, of course.. Lord knows I've been killing my readers for years! One love advice column at a time!" - eruptions of laughter Copyright@RedHammonds2017  

Worlds speak of love and peace But what of the other- the constant ego. No beliefs, values, love of family, nor  voice... Can outplay its need for control I will win- says the ego Because I come from places you cannot accept Fear allows me to speak for you The perception of yourself faltered Allows me to lead you Even in times of semi-content There is the ego No accomplishment can counter weigh The insecurity of tomorrow I am winning- says the ego Because you would feel naked without my shroud Because you lust for that which is not yours Because someone might be more Thank you- says the ego Because of you I thrive across waters, across hopes and dreams Because without your weakness There would be no job for me To know all humanity Copyright@RedHammonds2017