Today I was told that I have been a place holder for something better "I knew early on this would not last but I didn't think you and your daughter had anywhere to go. I do feel sorry for waisting your years". 9 years. You plugged another woman in immediately. Before it was even over. But that's nothing knew. Only one of the reasons I fought against you. You needed no greiving. Your life has not skipped a beat. What do I do with all this? At 52 and no longer desired. The one who lost everything with no way to rebuild. NO, I am not a victim. But yes, I am. I hung on out of loyalty to you as my friend and compannion. Out of love and possibilities. So, to know that I meant nothing still hurts. No matter that I should no longer care.